My spiritual journey
I believe we are all on our very own, very personal spiritual journey ever since we come to this planet. For me, today marks one year since my journey really took off. Since the Universe decided it was time to stop messing around. It put its foot on the gas, accelerating my journey, catapulting me forward and upward to some higher spheres I never even knew existed. And it led me right back to myself.
But let me tell you this story from the beginning. Almost a year ago today was the first day of Elevate the Globe’s 5 Day Raise Your Vibration Challenge. A challenge I had found on Instagram, of all places. I signed up without really knowing too much about what to expect. I had just arrived in Malaysia after three weeks in New Zealand and I was seriously done. At that time, I just wanted to go home and unwind before embarking on my next adventure, the Nomad Academy. But since I had booked all the flights already there
A Look in the Mirror
While I had been on Bali in February earlier that year, something had shifted. I had finally been willing to take a good hard look at myself and see not only the surface but the depths underneath. I was heartbroken. I had been for a long time. And instead of feeling the feelings, getting comfortable with the discomfort, I had looked for anything and everything outside of me to fix it or at least mask the pain. I was so disconnected from myself. I have tears running down my face writing this now. It saddens me so much when I look back at that girl with that big smile on her face always making everyone – including herself – believe that she was fine when she was anything but. Back when the initial trauma happened, I cried, a lot, but other than that I didn’t have any healthy coping skills. I didn’t know how to express my emotions, felt like I couldn’t talk about it, so instead I turned to food, alcohol and sex to numb the emotions. I lost my self-worth and self-respect somewhere along the way. And over the years, these coping mechanisms manifested into ‘that’s just what I do, that’s who I am’, making it harder and harder to break out of the vicious cycle every day that passed.
What I saw wasn’t pretty and as much as I wanted to, I couldn’t unsee it. I arrived in New Zealand with this new awareness, but old habits and beliefs die hard. I spent my time there recreating the patterns I had come to know so well. And they played out how they always do. Because, how Albert Einstein said so well already, you can’t do things the way you always do them and expect the outcome to be different. I ended up feeling even more disconnected. As if I was literally being torn between the old me and this new consciousness arising inside of me. Looking back now, I think Bali is the place where I finally allowed my Higher Self to step out of the shadows and started listening to its voice. Maybe this is what people mean when they talk about a Spiritual Awakening.
The Universe works its Magic
While awareness is always the first step on any journey of growth and self-development, I was still lacking the tools to change what had become my second nature over the years. That’s when I found Elevate the Globe and Kundalini Yoga. When I first saw the ad for this challenge that was supposed to transform my energy, health, happiness and abundance, I was immediately intrigued. On a pragmatic level, I also thought ‘I have five days and it’s free, so I might as well try it’. I’m not gonna lie, I was resistant at first, too. During the five days, I learned a lot about mindset and stress management, cleansing, movement, nutrition, connection and manifesting.
But also a lot about woo-woo things like angels and spirit guides that my ego jumped at and started judging immediately. This was all so new and foreign to me. I wouldn’t even have called myself spiritual back then. I had been into astrology for quite a while but that’s about it. I didn’t even like yoga! (At least the styles that I had tried, and still today I dislike sun salutations with a passion :D). But all these new concepts were also resonating with something deep inside of me. And Britt and Tara, the two co-founders of Elevate the Globe, and their contagious energy had me coming back day after day for more.
One year later, and this still hasn’t stopped. I am still coming back day after day, showing up on my mat and doing the work. I’ve purchased and done all their courses and listened to every podcast episode. I even went all the way to Bali again to participate in their very first retreat and finally connect with this amazing community in person. Where I once felt emptiness inside me, is now filled with love, light, hope and possibility.
You can only see how far you have come looking back
It’s been an extraordinary journey so far. Full of contrasts. Days when it is easy and light and everything makes sense as it falls into place. But also days when it is incredibly hard and
And I am far from done yet. I am still mending my broken heart, creating more space for love to come in daily. I am letting go of all my unhealthy coping mechanisms turned into habits one by one. I am currently building my dream career. I am finding my way back to my true self every day. I have a voice now. I know who I am and, most importantly, I know who I don’t want to be. I am so proud of how far I’ve come and I can’t wait to see what the future brings.
With love and gratitude, Julia xo